doubt

you've come back
from a desolate place
to a life too full

you're thrown in the mix
with a vulnerable mind

you want to get married

am i the padding for your raw fears?
am i a quick fix for a pain you can't see?
am i a warm body after too many empty mornings?

i've spent the entire past year carefully dodging commitment
and you call me one night and throw it in my lap

were you too high?
too drunk?
too numb?

i doubt how you feel
i expect it to end one day
like a brick
out of the blue

it will land in my lap